I have been feeling increasingly exhausted since yesterday afternoon. Even when I had a few minutes to myself, I couldn’t bring myself to use them to write or make progress on those three scene cards. And when I woke up this morning, it wasn’t much better.
I don’t think I was up particularly late last night, or that I did anything strenuous, but despite that, I woke up sore and feeling like I wanted to roll over for another hour of sleep. I didn’t though. I got out of bed and got my words in, though they were a little harder in coming today than they have been for a while.
After thinking about writing discipline a few days ago, I thought that I could do more to push myself. I thought I could get back to the keyboard whenever I had time and to work. But it’s never going to be easy to do. That’s why it takes discipline, I guess. Obvious.
What’s also obvious is that I can’t push my body and mind into a step change. I have to build a sustainable habit. If I want to start putting more time and energy into this on a regular basis, I need to figure out how to do that in a way that I can keep up.
Maybe it’s something like spending an extra 10 minutes in the day on writing. Not working directly on the story, but instead freewriting on where I think the story could go in the future. Or reflecting on where it is right now. Something about that story that will keep my mind on it, but without the pressure of getting words down, for now. Or maybe that does turn into words, but if I think about it just as freewriting, then I hope that will be more sustainable and less of a mental hurdle to overcome. We’ll see how that goes. Especially with today being Monday and another stressful week about to start.