This morning I committed myself to doubling my wordcount after taking yesterday off.
But missing a day is about more than just missing the words I was supposed to get it. I was away from the story again and lost the little momentum I had going two days ago. Not that I have really found any momentum so far with this story.
I am second-guessing everything as I write it. I know that this is just the first draft and I should be most worried about just getting the story onto the screen so that I can work on it in the edits. But after my last book became such a miserable project to edit and ultimately so bad that I’ve had to set it aside for now, I’m worried about producing another first draft that is too difficult to fix.
But the problem with that last novel was the story itself that was broken, or at least not strong enough. I’ve gone through a lot of effort to fix that this time in my planning and preparation process, so it shouldn’t be the same level of problem this time.
I need to start writing with more confidence.