There was a time when I held myself responsible for getting my words in, no matter what. Then, I would find time to write over lunch break on my tablet, if I had to. I would do whatever it takes. But recently, I’ve been letting myself off the hook more and more.
If you’ve been reading the posts here, you’ll know I gave in last week and slept in instead of writing, as I was facing a challenging week at work. Other times, I’ve given myself a pass in order to conserve mental energy for other stresses. Today, I didn’t write because I had to leave the house early for crossing guard duty for my daughter’s school.
Excuses.
I think part of the reason I have let myself make excuses is because writing has been stressful lately, instead of fun. At some point, I got away from writing for me, and now I feel like I’m under pressure to perform, to write publishable work.
I need to step it back. The first priority here is to finish my story, and to enjoy doing it. Otherwise, what’s the point? My long term goal is not to ditch the day job for something just as stressful!