This process of playing the scenes in my head and making notes about them feels tedious and slow – not because the scenes themselves are tedious, but because I am terrified that I am not doing it “right” and am going to find myself in a situation with crap scenes and a boring story again, just like the one I blew up to start over. I don’t know yet if this process will save me from that outcome.
So, I hesitate with each one and I don’t feel a sense of accomplishment, since I’m not sure what’s really going to work. It’s been a drag on my motivation in a week when the day job was also particularly stressful and draining.
As one way to combat that drag, I went through and counted the scenes that (I think) I need at this point. That way, I can get a sense of progress as I proceed and hopefully that can push me to get through it.
The next step is starting the writing, and I should be excited to get there! But I need that sense of forward progress to keep going.