I finished reading through all of the chapters I had written so far and started trying to write new words this morning, but I’m suffering from self-doubt. I was excited to get back into the fiction, but now that I’m starting again, my sense of my own inability is overwhelming. To be honest, I’m tempted to blow it all up ans start over again, but I know that won’t help.
I’m having inner editor issues. I have read so much, listened to so much advice, and watched courses. I’m trying to stuff everything into this story, to meet everyone’s advice, and to do everything perfectly. And even though I know that it’s ridiculous, I still can’t stop myself and just let the words flow.
I need to figure out some way to unplug my mind and convince myself just to write. The problem is that reading through the story so far – plus my extensive outline notes – is pushing me to overplan and getting in the way.
I want to finish this story. I want to get to “the end” then go back to edit it with the complete story in mind, instead of blowing it up and starting it again. But. But. Let me just try blowing it up. Let’s see what happens if I try to write freer.